Thursday, July 12th 2007
Pull The Plug
Tuesday January 9, 2007
After hearing SO much about him, Scott arrived and he is drop-dead gorgeous with a body & personality to match. I wanna adopt him as I do most of Johnny’s friends. Scott is a “10″ all the way; gentile and sweet with a very disarming charm. Tuesday night we all went to Bar Louie with Aimie and Kelly, and stopped at another local spot for an additional night cap. When we got home I made a fire in the fireplace and Scott & I talked and danced. He made me a DVD of Johnny’s Moving Into Light video and seeing that on the big screen drove me into a dance frenzy! Outta the way – ma is gonna shake her stuff!
Wednesday night more cousins, family & friends came over for spaghetti. I think we must’ve had about 150 people here during the three weeks he was home. Food, friends, fun and love. Who could ask for more?
Johnny left yesterday, which was Thursday. Monday I started to have the crying jags; Wednesday was unbearable; Thursday was “pull the plug” day.
You see, when Johnny is here his laptop remains, for the most part, on the island in the kitchen. It is at full throttle with music constantly. He must’ve given me about 500 songs while he was here. I made so many CDs I can barely keep track of them! I have music going in my bedroom at full blast even when the kitchen is rocking.
Picture it… Ohio 2007… the Hazzard household. I’m in the kitchen listening to his laptop dancing my heart out and singing along. Oh – gotta go pee! Walk down the hall and hear a different tune blaring from my bedroom. Change rhythm – dance and sing. Crazy. Wonderful.
So on Thursday I was watching Johnny and Scott load up Milo for their cross country trip. I just sat there with tears rolling down my cheeks after a sleepless night. The laptop was, of course, going full tilt in the kitchen provided a beat for their packing. Once Milo was loaded Johnny walked up to his laptop. Dead silence… the plug was pulled.
I knew he was looking forward to getting “home” to HIS place with HIS furniture and HIS goodies all over. After such a long time away it was only natural that he yearned to reclaim his life out in California, but that was little comfort for me at that moment.
Johnny has a habit of buying me things that he just happens to see and thinks are appropriate. For instance a retro postcard in purple (my favorite color) that says “MOMS: ALL SUPERHEROES DON’T WEAR CAPES”. Now, he not only thinks of me when he sees that, but goes out to buy a FRAME for it as well! Then on Wednesday he presented me with a small booklet titled “Dear Mom – Thank You For Everything”. It was one of those 30 page mini books that is filled with sayings (and pictures of cute animals) about how much love and appreciation he has for me. Wednesday was tough enough. I took it from him, the tears became heavier and I told him I would read it later. On the inside cover he wrote “Enough Said… Don’t Cha Think? I ‘heart’ U” next to the date.
Now it’s Tuesday and I’m still in withdrawal. Shit! I can’t stand this. We’ve talked at least twice every day since he and Scott left. They’re doing well. That’s all that matters. I’ve said it before… my sons are doing my traveling for me… seeing those places I’ve only dreamt about. Johnny just saw Carlsbad Caverns today and he’s still in awe. When he was younger, we had a mobile home and boat up at the Lake Erie Island and had taken a day to visit the caves / caverns / wineries on the Islands. He asked me today if I remembered the stalactites and stalagmites from one of the caves. Of course I did! Then he said I should picture that same scenario… only they’re 30 ft. high!
Mother Nature’s beauty… Mother Nature’s wonders. Just image the centuries it took her to make those. Johnny told me that WE’RE going to go there together! He wants me to experience the same awe he did.
That’s my boy.
Can Johnny start a class…like “How to do Mother’s Day 101″? Cause these are the sorts of things I would NEVER think of, and he just does them!
That’s why I love this entry so much. The readers don’t get to see that side of Johnny very often, but that’s all Ma H ever sees. That’s why I beg her for her contributions here. She has a perspective unlike any other.
Well she was the first to see Johnny naked in public and he was NOT happy about it. You bet she got a unique perspective.
I agree …uncomparable, outstanding, breathtaking and heartbreaking perspective!
I like Johnny’s lines, fine literature, but MaH’s makes your heart tremble and melt!
She’s good like that.
I am back home now for about 2 weeks and we have established a “no tears” rule for the time being.
She has already starting writing down bits and pieces of who knows what. It should be as always, a well written, heart warming, good couple of stories.
Oooh, I can’t wait to hear the next installment of “Ma H’s Hazzardous Heartwrenchers”!
See, I went with the alliteration thing….