Wednesday, January 25th 2006
It Feels Like The First Time
I lost my virginity to a girl named Erica Welch when I was 13. She was 16 and still in my grade. She just couldn’t get past that 8th grade hump. She was the class geek; ridiculed and tormented like the worst after school special. Being the empathetic and sweet man I am, I befriended her. We hung out after school out of sight of anybody, because if she wasn’t around, they picked on me. God forbid if anyone saw us together, my school career would have been over!
I had two friends in 8th grade, Amy and Aimie, my partners in crime. We snuck out together, smoked cigarettes and drank out of my parents liquor cabinet. Amy and Aimie had lost their cherries in the same night. I was the only one left. I had to get laid, but who could I find? One day after school, Erica and I were walking to another school to take the late bus home with permission slips I forged. On the way, I proposed we take the way through the woods.
We stopped at the creek for a smoke where I asked her to show me her tits. She obliged willingly and we played a little game of exploration for a bit. I went home shocked, a little nauseous and really fucking nervous. I knew I had started the ball rolling and if I was going to do it – this was the girl.
A couple of days later, I asked her if she would fuck me. I added that it would be my first time and I would need some coaching. She was all for it! We decided to do it at my parents house in the basement. They were both home and having friends over was nothing new to them. Perfect! So to throw a twist on things and to make this task a bit more along my taste. I asked Erica if she would mind a 4 way with two of my buddies. She said yes!!!!
The day came. She made it on time. Brian and Cornell arived shortly there after. Awkward was not the word to describe the situation. To be honest, I cannot remember how it all started. I remember telling the boys to count to 50 and meet me in the laudry room where I would hopefully be gettin’ my groove on. They both counted to like 11 and then came around, giggled a little and scurried back to the TV room. Fuckers! Now what do I do? I had seen it done before. I put my dick where I thought it should go and then I think I lasted no more than a minute before I came. God! I was sooooooooooooooooo glad that was over. She didn’t seem to mind that the entire experience lasted 1 minute and 11 seconds. I called my girls and told them of my recent transition to the world of the sexually experienced. I didn’t tell them who until we were in college.
That takes care of the girl…
Before the days of AOL and Manhunt there was Prodigy. An internet sort of thing that my parents got for me and my brother. I was slowly realizing my gayness and was very pleased to see how easy it was to find other gays out there all from this little box. I found some guy from Youngstown who chatted me up. We moved to the phone sex thing and eventually decided to meet. I was 15. There are other details….weird and scary details, but for the most part it was very exciting and sort of gross. b/c he was in fact gross. But it introduced me to a world that was far too short lived. Once the parental unit figured out what type of homework I was doing on the computer it was back to pen and paper for this naughty boy!
