I’d be in a bookstore and see a picture on a magazine and think ‘that model looks like {insert real name here}. I doubt it though… last I heard he was working in a jewelry store.’ Then I’d pick up some glbt magazine and flip trough it months later, and again think, nahh can’t be {}. Then about a year ago I was in my ex’s bedroom, and sitting there in the closet was his porn collection. I glanced at it and saw Johnny Hazzard on the cover. At the edges of my consciousness I though {}, but NO… the boy next door couldn’t be? Could he?

So I looked on the stupid classmates thing to see if perhaps everyone’s favorite hottie hippie was on. I got confused when try all I could there was no record of {}.Why oh why would he drop off the face of the earth? (keep in mind I had no idea Johnny was gay).

Well then I get a message on MySpace from this girl I knew in HS. She and I were never what one could call good friends, but we were part of the same circle of friends. She asked do you remember {}? Well DUH! Do I remember the boy who moved in next door to my family not long after I started school after moving in myself? Do I remember the attractive boy who when I first saw him bringing in the garbage can and just KNEW he was something special? The boy who was my first puppy love? The guy who would borrow a dollar for a Pepsi at lunch? The guy who called me sweetheart? Nah… no recollection at all.

Well she told me to Google the name Johnny Hazzard. So I did. I walked around for days in a daze. Then I decided to e-mail Johnny. LOL boy am I glad I did so!

I have missed my old friend. And I am glad I can share a glimpse of our childhood with all of his fans. I just don’t want to hear all about his sex life.

When sex is your business, it really becomes not such an important or fun thing outside of work. Of course, you’re so much more articulate than I am at expressing that.

Does your family actually see much of your work? Ma Hazzard is obviously very cool and very proud of you, but I imagine she does not really dig the idea of watching her Johnny getting fucked on screen, but at the same time must be curious about what makes her son an icon of gay porn. Does being a porn star sometimes get weird with family, friends, and collegues who are not gay?

I worked at a bar for 3 years where the staff wears very little and is encouraged to be hypersexual all the time… in a word, objectified. It fucked with my head at first because I found my sex drive was reduced significantly. It’s truly exhausting to be sexual all the time.

I would see the same people at my bar everyday, getting completely shitfaced and then making complete asses of themselves. Of course I felt a certain amount of disgust at their behavior, but more so I just felt empathy. They would tell me things that most people would be embarrassed to tell their therapists and then they’d be trying to grab my ass. Really, all they wanted was the same thing we’re all craving: intimacy. I suppose in their inebriated, warped minds, they thought they’d found it.

This is so gay, but Johnny’s post made me think of this thing Madonna once said. Something about how most people think she’s this nyphomaniac who craves sex all the time when really she’d rather just be reading a book… Hey Johnny, read any good books lately?